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….Got to GET OVER IT….

>>March 31st, 2008

Well, the title says it all. Saturday was defintely not a true representation of the hard work and effort that I have been putting into triathlon training. I was off on Saturday, by A LOT!

It started off that I did not feel “on” the day before the race. I chalked it up to just being super nervous to race the most stacked professional field in the history of any 70.3 race. Crazy! So Reid and I went for an easy spin in beautiful Rancho Santa Fe, San Diego area. I noticed that my shifting was seriously off. We decided that we would take my bike to the on site race expo mechanic as we still had to go over to check in and attend the pro meeting. Great, right? Sounded like the perfect plan. We headed over to Oceanside, had the mechanic adjust my front and rear derailleurs, tighten my hubs, and tighten my headset. I guess everything was out of wack from the 21 hour travel time back from Oz. So, we think everything is great and head over to check in, etc.

Race morning arrives quicker than expected. We head over 30 mins North to Oceanside. Everything seems fine. It is chillier than I am used to and my nerves are flying high. But I try to remain calm and set up my transition area without looking around or talking to many people. I notice all the cameras around my rack, as Michellie, Mirinda and Sam McGlone are racked pretty close to me. I keep thinking this is it. This is what I wanted. I want to race the best and I know that after training in Oz with some of the best, that I belong here and am ready to see how I perform.

The swim starts off a bit tough for me. I just did not have that surge to hold onto the pack that I wanted to stay with and I did not have the aggressiveness in me to bump, swim over, elbow any of the girls around me. I am not sure why. I was so passive. This is really not like me when I am on my game. I ended up pulling the 2nd pack of swimmers up to a few straglers and then I settled in behind one of them. I felt like the pace was easy, so I look up and see the first pack a good 30 seconds ahead. I just did not have the mental toughness in me on this day to go for it and try to make a break and swim up to that pack. I am so mad at myself. I am not sure what my problem was. I can only think that I was just really mentally and physically exhausted from my Oz trip. This is all I can think of. Anyway, I get to the swim exit and hear the announcer say that Michellie Jones was now heading out of T1. I was a bit disappointed as I know I am a better swimmer and I should have raced my heart out.

I head through T1 and it was nice to hear lots of my friends and fellow competitors cheering for me. This made me feel better and I raced to get on my bike and off I went. This is where my REAL troubles begin.

I could not shift right. Uh oh! I could not shift into easier gears. Oh well, I thought, just relax and work with what you have. I settled into a good pace, grinding in my harder gears, trying to work with my shifting, moving it around, shifting into all gears to see if it would work itself out. It was not going to be the case. I could only use gears 12-17 and once in a while I could shift into my 19 and hold onto my lever so that it would not auto shift on its own. Yes, this was absolutely crazy and frustrating. I could not believe this was happening. I tried so hard to calm down but I could only do it for so long. I did not have one gear that would sound smooth. Gears 12-17 stayed in place but sounded like they were rubbing against my derailluer. It was ugly. Dropping out of the race crossed my mind over and over again. But I just kept telling myself to stick with it and the run will be so much better. After 30 miles of grinding on the hilly course, my quads were screaming in pain. My right VMO (muscle right above your knee) was on fire and felt like it was ripping. It was so painful. I began to pedal with most of my pressure on my left leg. Brutal, but true and all I could do was finish the bike at this point. 56 miles later, I was hurting so bad from pushing such big gears on so many hills that I could barely walk.

I decided to try the run. It started off so painful, but mentally I was still hoping for a miracle. I just kept saying to myself “use this as a fitness builder, it’s ok.” I was so bummed, but just kept trying to smile and feel good about something, anything. I thought about my great training days in Oz, how mentally tough this was going to make me, and I just kept plodding along. Again, dropping out crossed my mind many times, especially when I would see girls that I know I belong with, passing me by or headed in the opposite direction because they were so far ahead of me. Mentally, this was one of the toughest challenges to overcome. It was clearly not my day, luck was not on my side.

I finished in so much pain that my quads were ready to give out. I headed to the medical tent to ice immediately. I was so upset with myself for not checking my bike after the mechanic worked on it. But you live and you learn. I am hungrier than ever now and I know I will prove that I can race with the best this season. I will continue to work hard and I will take this race and look at the positives. I stuck with it, despite all the lows and I worked with what I had and I never gave up. It made me tougher mentally!

Thanks for reading and thanks so much to Mel, Elaine, Bree, Linsey and Elf for making me realize that I will soon reach my goals and just have to forget about this one and move on…….

Have a great day!

E

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Home Sweet Home…..

>>March 25th, 2008

Here is a pic of my favorite girls in Oz, post ocean swim at Noosa Main Beach ;-) I love these girls. They made my time in Oz amazing!
I am home now. Nothing like home sweet home! I am happy to be here, thrilled to see Belle and Reid. But I am also back to work. Today was my first day back and boy was it tough! I could hardly keep my eyes open looking at my 500+ emails. Craziness, but it is all good!

I arrived home on Saturday afternoon and I was super lucky to have the cutest couple pick me up at the airport, yup Reid and Belle. Belle was allowed in the airport as she is so obedient and looks like a guide dog in training ;-) I was SO HAPPY to see my little family! I cried, like a big baby. I love them!

Saturday, after getting home I decided I needed to do a little spin to loosen up my legs. So Reid and I went out and did a very easy hour ride. It felt so good to be riding on the right side of the road again. HA! I was so not used to the left hand side, even after 16 days in Oz. Saturday, we all got a great night sleep. I slept 11 hours. It was sweet.

Sunday morning I had a planned ride with some climbing. It was supposed to be pretty mellow with the exception of a few pick ups on the climbs. Well, I really want to show Reid that I can finally hang with him ;-) So, as we got started on our ride, I decided that I would pull and stay in front of him, I guess you can call that half wheelin.’ HAHAHA! I loved it. Surprisingly, I felt ok and not too jet lagged. We got going at a pretty good pace on one section of flat roads (yes Katya, FLAT). I was ahead of Reid and feeling strong. As soon as we got onto the main road, Reid went in front of me and decided to push the pace a bit. I hung on and before I knew it we were moving at a pretty good speed. It was so much fun, I hung in there and never let go. I knew he was trying to shake me off, but not anymore ;-) So funny! He was impressed. Nice! That made me smile so BIG! It was a great day on home turf ;-)
We then headed to a family Easter lunch. It was awesome to see my family. We had a blast and I told them tons of Oz stories. They were proud of all of us girls for working our tails off ;-) Later that night, Belle, Reid and I did a nice easy run. As we were running, I could not keep my mind off of how lucky I was to experience an amazing 16 day journey in Oz. I kept telling story after story during our run and kept on smiling and laughing. Wow, I am lucky.
Have an awesome day everyone!

Love,

E
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Swim, Track and "Miles"

>>March 20th, 2008

The past several days have been amazing. I have had breakthrough performances on all 3 sports. I will start off with the swim. On Tuesday, I again led Lane 2 and had a super strong swim set. I was leading my lane and pushing all of my lanemates to catch me. It was so much fun, but such hard work. I was hurting really bad half way through the set, but I held on and fought hard and bettered my times by the last set. I was so stoked, as were both of our coaches on deck. I also had a hard ride on this day and felt so great until I flatted 2xs. But I did not let that ruin my ride, I was left to ride on my own, which was totally fine as I learned to push myself just as I would in racing. Another great lesson learned.

On Wed, we had an early morning run (5AM) and our surf life saving swim (5:30AM) in 3-4 foot waves. This is such a hard workout, since we have to run on the sand, dive and duck under waves, swim out to some buoys and try to catch waves back to shore without getting too pummeled AND do it over and over again! The ocean was much more calm this time and so much fun. I followed one of the junior life saving champions, Molly, a couple of times on the way in and we caught a couple of awesome waves all the way to shore. So cool! And I only got pummeled twice this time. Each time I learned to relax and let the wave pass and then try to come up for air ;-) It worked and I did not freak out. It is so much fun learning so much everyday, having amazing teammates that push me, and working so hard every workout.

Later Wed afternoon, we headed out to the grass track to do our much anticipated 8 x 1 mile repeats. We were pretty nervous about this workout as we wanted to make it on the interval Coach had given us. As we were warming up, a couple of little girls came up to Coach to tell him that there was a hurt bird on the track and asked if he could call animal control. He said sure, but seemed preoccupied with our workout. For those of you that know me really well, I’m sure you could picture the look on my face. I was bummed, but knew Coach would call someone soon. Onto the workout. I felt flat and sluggish on the first couple of repeats and my mind was not fully focused. Each lap, I would look over at the hurt bird and hear his cries of desperation ;-( On the fourth repeat, I mentioned to Coach that he may want to call animal control. He got a little annoyed with me and said if you have time to worry about the bird, then you are not working hard enough. So, as hard as it was, I blocked the bird out for the next 4 repeats and had great strong splits. By the 6th one, I was feeling so great and finishing 10 seconds too fast. Oops! I did this on the 7th one too. On the final mile, we all stayed strong and still finished a little faster than goal pace. Coach was happy with our workouts! This was definitely a breakthrough run for me ;-) I am super happy!

Before our cooldown, I walked over to a guy on the track who said he would call the vet right away. Yes, I was still thinking about the poor lil’ hurt crow on the track. I finished my cool down and the guy came up to me and gave me his phone to call the vet. I called Oz info and got the number of a nearby vet. They told me that I would have to bring the bird in as no one would be able to come down there. So I asked Coach if I could pick up the bird and bring it in to the vet and he said no since we were already running late. But within seconds he changed his mind and said I have 2 mins to get the bird. So Janet and I ran across the track and with 2 T-shirts managed to scoop the bird up. He struggled a bit, but soon relaxed. I think he knew we were going to help him ;-) On the way to the vet, we named him “Miles.” I know, some of you may think I am nuts, but this is me being me. I am such a huge animal lover and will do everything and anything to help an animal. We got to the vet and they took Miles in and said they would check him out. They were so thankful and said “thank you, we appreciate people like you.” This made me feel so good inside!

What a great end to my day! Oh, one more thing, Coach even bought us soft serve ice cream on the way home…… ;-)

Love,
E

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Yes, I did it!

>>March 16th, 2008

I did it, I made it through one FULL week of our Australia training camp! This has been the most amazing experience of my life! I have never in my wildest imagination thought that I could handle one super TOUGH workout after another, after another…….. I did not think that my body could handle more than 14 hours a week of triathlon specific training. I was so wrong, I underestimated myself. I keep learning that I need to BELIEVE in myself. I think I truly do now :-)

This week, I had the longest bike ride of my life, the most meters ever swum in my life, the most quality miles I have ever run in one week, and the most rough water swims in open ocean ever. I also had to ride my bike to and from swim practice, and to and from the grocery store. Wow, I overcame many major lows and mental obstacles and kept pushing forward. I did not give up, even though I literally felt like I could not make it through another workout. I had to believe in myself and know that my mind would work wonders and my body would have to follow. I spent many days on the phone with Reid, crying, and I have to thank him so much for making me stick with it and believe in myself. He is the most amazing husband and best friend. I also hit many highs. I had amazing moments in the pool where I felt like I was on top of the water, hydroplaning, on the bike where I felt like I was flying up hills, and on the run where I felt like I could go on forever ;-) I am so stoked and so happy that I am growing everyday as an athlete and person. I continue to learn from everyone of my amazing roomates and teammates here in Oz and of course from my great Coach Paul.

AND THANK YOU to everyone who has sent me such sweet and inspirational notes to keep working hard!! I love all of you.

P.S. Total training hours this week, just shy of 30.

E

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Eileen and friends

>>March 15th, 2008
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The RIDE with World Champions

>>March 15th, 2008

Today we had another early morning. The group ride here meets at 6AM. So we rolled out of our place around 5:40AM. Super early for a ride. When we got to the ride start, the athletes there were amazing. Several World Cup ITU athletes, World Champions, and many more amazing athletes. I started off near the front with Greg Bennett chatting tons. We talked about the Bay Area (they thought about moving there), CA races, and huge waves here in Noosa. He is so awesome and easy to talk to. I was so into our chat but feeling a bit out of breath on some of the rollers. I looked down at my HR and whoa, did I freak out a bit ;-) HA! I told Greg that I was moving to the back. He laughed and said “yea, the warm-up is a bit fast today.” So funny, but true!
I moved to mid pack and that felt SO much better. The ride was super fun and controlled on the way out, but as soon as we hit the turnaround, the pace picked up a bit. Again, I found myself next to Greg B. He laughed at the pace and sarcastically said “this is what makes champions. this pace.” It was too slow for all of the awesome athletes. Within 20 seconds of Greg making that comment, the pace picked up 10 fold. It was crazy fast. I tried to hang on as best I could, but soon enough I found myself blow off the main pack of 15 or so riders. I hung tough, TT’d my way to a couple of people that also fell off and found myself pulling that group for a bit on the way back home. It was so cool, I felt great for the first time in a long time on a group ride. Sweet!!

The run off the bike was also a great fitness builder. I started off feeling sluggish but soon found my rhythm and Coach helped me tons while he was out there on the scooter. And my teammates were awesome. We all helped each other out by cheering and yelling! I ran the last part of my run with Katya by my side and Coach right behind us on his scooter. It was super cool and awesome to work my butt off and finally feel like my running legs are coming along!

Love all of you!

E

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Speed Day!

>>March 14th, 2008

Here are some pix……YES I GOT TO DOWNLOAD THEM…….Pic 1 – Koala Crossing ;-) Pic 2 – Janet, Bree, and Me post race – 15 hours after arriving in Oz. Pic 3 – The Bennet’s at Noosa Aquatic Centre, post swim. Pic 4 – Ice Bath, much needed ;-) Pic 5 – our “rough” open water swim venue. Pic 6 – the Team (Bree was en route)

Today was Speed Day in the pool. AND boy did it hurt! This was our first speed day in the pool and it was intense. We had lots of 50s and 100s on decent intervals but we were supposed to work HARD!! We all worked hard, but not hard enough as Coach was not too pleased with our set. I agreed, I should have HURT even more. I thought that was all I had but Coach believes there is more. Another great lesson learned in Oz. Keep working super, super HARD, no matter what!

Miss you all….

Love,

E
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Great Thursday!

>>March 14th, 2008

Sweet, Thursday in Oz went really well! I had an awesome morning swim which consisted of lots of drill work and a little bit of speed. It started off a bit slow, but quickly turned into a positive workout. As I am learning, I just need to stick with it no matter how exhausted I am feeling. Positive, positive, positive attitude will go a LONG way ;-) Later that morning I had a metting with Coach. It was great! We covered alot of things that I was hoping we would cover and be on the same page. I was a happy girl!

In the PM, we did hill repeats and I surprisingly felt super strong! I was so stoked to be feeling good on the hills. It was a great set, where we could cheer each other on. My teammates are Awesome! I will take that one and remember the great feeling ;-)

Our day was topped off with a trip to the grocery store, by bus since we were too tired to ride our bikes ;-) HA! We had so much fun on our “little field trip” as Wee likes to call it! We all had a great dinner together filled with loads of laughter as usual!

Thanks so much for all of the words of encouragement. I will write more later today when we finally make it over to an internet cafe. Pics will be posted too ;-)

Love all of you so much…..

E

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Ice Breaker Triathlon

>>March 13th, 2008
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No "Juice" Today

>>March 12th, 2008

Well, my body finally decided that it had enough! The past couple of days I have been feeling fatigued but have still been pushing through each and every one of my workouts. Today was another story. After a 90 minute ocean session this morning, with 6 foot waves, getting pummeled and tons of beach runs, I finally hit a road block. After not sleeping well the past 2 nights, and training more than I have ever trained for this sport, my body screamed to stop right in the middle of track practice. NOT GOOD! I think my legs were in shock. How could they take another tough workout with 2 bad nights of sleep and already being trashed? It was just not my day and it was not happening. I can push through fatigue, pain, and just about everything, but this was different. My quads literally locked up and said nope, not today! Yikes, OUCH! I am not going to lie, I was seriously bummed and frustrated. And of course when you are so far away from home, it makes things worse. I was not only feeling lousy, I was now more home sick than ever.

Coach made me run a base run on my own. Total bummer. But I knew this was the only thing I could do that made sense and would keep me from getting injured. It was hard to go out on the roads on my own while my teammates were on the track. But I had time to contemplate and check out some new areas. It was not so bad, I felt ok going slow, and I even avoided a major meltdown by telling myself that I am super lucky to be here and so grateful for everything that I have at home waiting for me. I love you Reid and Belle!!

Good night, tomorrow will be a better day!

E

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